Not Another One

October 23, 2010

Walker is gone.  Leidy laid on him this evening and apparently suffocated him.  There was no puppy scream, nothing so that I could run in and rescue him.  I had been in holding and cuddling the babies.  I left them to put away dishes.  I went back in to check them before I went to bed and Leidy was frantically licking Walker, but he was gone.

I feel so helpless with this litter.  The babies are being picked off one at a time no matter how careful I am.  I am glad this day is over.


  1. Kathy M. says:

    Oh Penni, I am SO sorry. How devastating. Sometimes no matter how hard you try these things just happen. I know it is hard too when you’re facing it by yourself. I am heartbroken for you. As hard as it is after something like this, just keep moving forward. Remember that last time there were only two from the start. You still have a nice sized litter, so try not to dwell on what isn’t, but focus on what IS! These will be lovely puppies and will grow to be lovely adults!

    If it is any consolation you said that Thunder had been crying a lot from the beginning. Most likely there was something wrong with him from the start that wasn’t going to get better, no matter what you did. It is just one of those things!

    Tomorrow will be better!


  2. Ariel says:

    I’m so sorry. 🙁

  3. Keith & Jo says:

    We feel so heart-broken for your losses. As Kathy stated, focus on the babies. If you were within driving distance I’d come over and give you a huge hug and I’m normally not a hugging person. If there is anything we can do, please let us know. Our prayers are with you and the puppies.

  4. c-myste says:

    I feel HORRIBLE for you.
    Yes, something was wrong with Thunder from the start. But losing an apparently healthy one …

  5. Taryn says:

    This is very sad news. My heart is heavy and I am so sad for you.

  6. Tony says:

    Oh no!!! What bad news, I feel so sad for you, Leidy & the little puppies

  7. Jeri says:

    Oh no! I’m so, so sorry Penni!! What a terrible accident. 🙁

  8. Dawn says:

    I am so sorry Penni.

  9. Lani says:

    I’m so sorry to hear about the 2 puppies… Hugs & kisses to you, Leidy & the rest of the pups.

  10. Builder Mama says:

    Penni, I am so sorry – I can’t even imagine how devastating it must be. I told my son this morning when he got up, and he said, “That means Grandpa must have needed some corgis in heaven!” Rest assured, my dad will take most excellent care of them. 🙂

  11. Le'o says:

    Oh Penni. I’m so very sorry. I’m crying, worried even more about Panda’s soon-to-be-born babies, and know you take this whole business as seriously as I do. I too wish there was something magical to say or that I could do something that would be more helpful.

  12. Carol Teal says:

    I’m so sorry Penni! My prayers are with you and the rest of the babies.

  13. Megan says:

    So, so sorry to hear the sad news. Hugs to you and the rest of the babies.

  14. Julie says:

    (((Penni))) I am so-so sorry. My heart is breaking for you and Leidy.

  15. Alta says:

    Oh I am so sorry to hear the news. Hugs to the crew and wishes for a smooth ride from here.

  16. Shep says:

    Oh Penni, I am so sorry.. 🙁

  17. Jean from NM says:

    Oh, Penni, I can’t believe this is happening. I’m so sorry. Let me know if I can help.

  18. Amy says:

    Penni I’m so sorry to hear about your little one. Very sad to lose any of our babies but that is a huge blow. Kisses for Leidy and the puppies

  19. claire says:


    I am so sorry to hear about Walker and Thunder. You, Leidy and the pups are in my thoughts.

  20. Janet says:

    I have been so busy this weekend – I missed all of this. This is heart-breaking! And scaring me! Hang in there.

  21. DeAnn says:

    Penni, I’ve been out of town all weekend and just caught the posts. I’m so very sorry for the loss of Thunder and Walker. *sending mental hugs your way*

  22. sandy says:

    Penni…I hope you find some peace with this saying. Sadly, I have sent it to two other friends who have suffered loss in their lives, just this week:

    “We who choose to surround ourselves with lives even more temporary than our own, live within a fragile
    circle, easily and often breached. Unable to accept its awful gaps, we still would live no other way. We cherish memory as the only certain immortality, never fully understanding the necessary plan.” —-Irving

    Hugs from Washington State…

  23. Alden says:

    Oh, Penni! How awful. My heart aches for you. For once, I’m at a loss for words. You, Leidy, and the puppies will be in my prayers tonight.

    I’m so very, very sorry.

    Watson, et al will get extra bed-time hugs tonight.

  24. Garrett says:

    Penni. I have no words to offer you that everyone else hasn’t already said except that I’m sorry I was away all weekend and missed this entire debacle.

    Hugs coming from MN.

  25. Kristine says:

    I’ve been gone for a couple of days and was just catching up on my blog reading. I’m so sorry to hear about the puppies. Hugs to you.

  26. Traci says:

    I didn’t check blogs this weekend either, so I managed to miss this! 🙁 I’m so very sorry 🙁 Hugs to the puppies, and to you!!!

  27. Sherilyn says:

    Oh, Penni, I’m just getting caught up on all of this. I am so sorry for your losses, it’s never easy, and so frustrating when you’ve done everything right! Hugs to you and the sweet babies.